Gerardsmomutah

List of "Have you ever" questions this week. Ever make a big mistake that you regret? Ever had an accident you wish never happened? Ever caused an accident you wish had never happened? Well... Both of those things happened this week with a bigger impact and bigger heartache than I anticipated. Here's a couple of other questions I have to ask this week, on my Friday wrap-up: Ever think you're whining too much? Ever think you complain too much? Ever been told you ask too many questions? Ever beat yourself up after making a big mistake? Ever not trust yourself? Ever say something stupid that you regret? Yes, yes, yes. I answer yes to all of these questions of myself today, and more so than any other day this week. Why? Because just when I think I'm getting all of my **it together and feeling more positive about the world, and my life in it, I royally f*ck it up. Or, at least, I think I have. Bleep. Bleep. Bleep. Let me preface this by saying this p...

Yesterday, I decided that I needed a place to share information with a broader audience about my life living with a child who has a chronic illness. Navigating that can be tricky for anyone, much less a Utah mom. I'll get to those specifics in a minute. Let's just say that yesterday I hit bottom. You know it if you've been there. The day begins and continues with tears, frustration, anger, fear, prayers, more bad thoughts of when will this get any better, and how will I put dinner on the table and move on with my life. Seriously. If you're a mom, you've probably been there once or twice, maybe more. No more details necessary when your kid is sick. I don't have to spell it out. You know. I am a mom. I live in Ogden, Utah beforewhich, I was not a mom. Maybe this is stating the obvious, but I'm a little bit older than most moms here. (Hint: I'm way past my thirties).  In fact, my first day at a new job in Utah promted the question I never thought I'd ...